Wednesday, March 31, 2010



  • This morning's weight:      242.5         
  • Fasting Blood Sugar:           174             
  • Breakfast:                                               
       Bowl of fresh fruit (strawberries, red grapes, a pear)
       Orange juice
       2 cups coffee (no additives)
  • Activities:
       Headed to neighborhood mall for a walk
       Shopped for a Bday present for David
       Blood sugar went through the floor - had to stop 
            at Starbucks
  • Snack: 
       See above - Starbucks
       Tall Vanilla Latte
       Blueberry Muffin                                                 
  • Activities:
        Up to chapter 15 of same kind of different...
        Made a production for lunch
             (Only consumed 1/2 of the muffin and ready for
             something special)
        Blackened Catfish with caper sauce
        Spanish rice with peas and tomatoes
        1/2 small avocado with salsa

  • Lunch: (There's enough leftovers for another day!)
  • Activities:
       Worked on blog so I could make you
       envious about lunch...
       Off to find a fax machine, finishing my
        taxes and ready to send via Turbo Tax
        but must transfer funds into IRA first.

  • Dinner: 8:00pm
       1/2 cup rotisserie chicken salad
       6 saltines
       small wedge iceberg/sliced tomato      
       Fat-free Ranch
       2% milk 1 cup
  • Blood Sugar before dinner: 164
     I decided to bite the bullet and shave off the beard and mustache. It's been my almost constant companion for over 40 years - I shaved it off for a week when Liz and I got married 34 years ago and once again for about a week 9 years later. Liz asked me to grow it back both times. Yes, I was ugly back then too but with half my face covered with hair, not so much. Just in case family and friends don't notice the changes in my behavior, I can always point to the loss of the scraggly, homeless-person-looking-beard. And also, it gave me a title for today's blog, No Turning Back Now.
     Even if Liz does somehow convince me to grow back the beard, the positive changes in my lifestyle and character I hope to keep. However the loneliness is becoming a real hurdle. I walked a shopping mall on this side of town today just to be around other people. I even asked a sales clerk for directions I didn't need. It was a pleasure to stop at Starbuck's and sip a latte and munch half a blueberry muffin under the pretense my blood sugar was low. The day before I had opted for a fruit cup to fight off low blood sugar. Today, I was desperate.

     I thought this experiment was going to be easier. Years ago I worked in Mexico City during the week and flew home on weekends. That was a snap compared to this. There, I had an office staff and clients to visit with. Here, I feel like a prisoner in solitary confinement. Oh sure, I have a well stocked kitchen, a beautiful yard, great weather, and two giant screen TVs but nothing beats a companion. No wonder God made Eve for Adam. He saw how alone Adam was. And no, I'm not in search of an Evette or a Liz II. I am, however, looking forward to attending church this Sunday. Usually I could expect a lot of attention as a guest and I might have charmed someone to invite me to lunch, but this Sunday is Easter and the church will be overflowing with visitors and those who only attend on "High Holy Days." The only person who will likely make eye contact with me will be the usher shoving an offering plate my way. 

     Let me know you're reading this, if only to tell me what I misspelled or what a wimp I am and how lucky I am to be able to get out of town and how many guys would love to get away  from work and that I should just suck it up. 

     I better quit while I'm ahead.  My overall grade for today: C-

     How did you do?        



  • This morning's weight:      244.0        
  • Fasting Blood Sugar:           N/A             
  • Breakfast:                                               
       1 cup Great Grains
       1 cup 2% milk
       3 fresh strawberries
       2 cups coffee (no additives)
  • Activities:
       Work on blog
       Feed Huckleberry (the fish)
       Treats for Willow and Cricket
       Get the paper
       Good Morning America (I miss Diane)
  • Snack: 
       Small fruit cup from Chick Fil-A                                                 
  • Activities:
        Mall walked 2 miles with brother-in-law, Lee

  • Lunch: 1:00pm
       Chinese Fastfood @ the mall
       Mixed veggies - broccoli/cabbage/carrots
       Lo Mein noodles
  • Activities:
       Cranked up classical music and napped
       (Had intended to read but zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz)
       Prepared my favorite chicken salad:
            2 cups shredded rotisserie chciken
            1/2 cup chopped peeled green apple
            1/2 cup chopped walnuts
            1/2 cup chopped celery
            1/3 cup sliced red seedless grapes
            2 chopped green onion
            2 tblsp mayo (light if you got it - I didn't)
            2 tblsp E.V.O.O. (if you don't know, ask Rachael)
            1 tsp brown mustard
            Season to taste
            1 small avocado
            1 small tomato
            1 small wedge iceberg
                   (salt & pepper and drizzle E.V.O.O.)
             Stoneground sesame crackers
             Crystal Light Lemonade
  • INTERLUDE: Now I'm stuffed with dishes to clean, but it was worth it. Now to feed the dogs and maybe do a little reading. I am not comfortable with the way things are set-up to do my writing. I am spoiled by my wireless keyboard I left at home. I guess I will have to transfer files to my sister's computer and work on it. 
  • Snack:
           Boiled shrimp w/ cocktail sauce
           saltine crackers

     The best thing about today was meeting brother-in-law Lee at the mall. Human contact! The communication between adult human beings is so much more than the communication between two spoiled Chihuahuas. Oh, you can talk to them if you want. I wonder if they understand my conversation any better than I understand their wagging tails and screeching barks? And, more importantly, they don't seem keen on listening. But then I am not sure if brother-in-law Lee was keen on listening to me blasting him with my incessant orations. I was so glad to be actually heard and understood. I don't remember if I even listened for his responses. Did he actually talk or was he just listening?
     This blog has become my instrument for reaching out for human contact. I spend way too much time thinking about writing it and then planning to write, and then actually writing. What happened to the list of important tasks I actually wanted to accomplish?

     I got my test strips in the mail today for my glucometer. That is the reason for my "N/A" response to entering my blood sugar levels. I had only 2 strips with me when I got here. I realize now that fresh fruit can really affect your blood sugar, even though it appears and feels healthy. I am learning now that volume supersedes content. Not that what you eat isn't important but you can't stuff your face with chicken salad and expect to lose weight. You can get and stay fat eating too much healthy food!

     My overall grade for today: B+

     How did you do?        

Tuesday, March 30, 2010



  • This morning's weight:      246.5         
  • Fasting Blood Sugar:           80             
  • Breakfast:                                               
       1 egg
       1 slice whole wheat toast (1 tsp Promise)
       1/2 cup fat-free cottage cheese w/3 fresh strawberries
       1 cup 2% milk
       2 cups coffee (no additives)
  • Activities:
       Washed clothes, towels
       Brought in trash containers
       Cleaned breakfast dishes
       Watered backyard
       Created format for this daily blog
  • Snack: 
       Kashi Trail Mix bar                                                 
  • Activities:
        Another chapter of same kind of different...
        Twice around the block, 20 minutes
        (Oops...tried to do too much. Blood sugar fell through 
        the roof)
        Bowl of strawberries
        2 Tbl Peanut Butter
        That's better, not ready for lunch, ready for a nap.
        1 1/2 hrs working on Devotional Dictionary corrections
  • Lunch: 3:00pm
       Szechuan Shrimp stir fry
       Brocolli/Sprouts/Snow Peas/Carrots/Red Cabbage
       1/2 cup white rice
  • Activities:
       45 min. watching Castle (fstfwrd past commercials)
       Another chapter of same kind of different...
  • Snack:
       1/2 cup tuna salad
       saltine crackers
       2% milk 1 cup
  • Activities
  • Blood Sugar before dinner: N/A
  • Dinner:
  • Activities:
  • Snack:
     Yesterday I finished the last chapter of Joshua by Joseph F. Girzone. The book, a gift from my sister, is a wonderful piece of Christian fiction. I cried, not so much at the ending, but in the early parts of the book as Christ's nature was revealed. Last night I finished the first three chapters of same kind of different as me by Ron Hall and Denver Moore. It holds promise of a great story about an unlikely relationship. 
     The longest journey begins with but one step. I made that step today - towards a goal of becoming better. I want to be a better husband, a better writer, a healthier being. I want to focus my thoughts toward becoming a better father, a better grandfather (and great grandfather to Elijah), a better friend, and a better Christian. 
     I was prepared for today. I met it with great anticipation, having planned for it over the past three days. 
     My overall grade for today: A

     How did you do?        

Monday, March 29, 2010


The day before the 1st day of 30 days.  
     Let me explain the reason for this short term blog experiment. My sister, Gayle, is going to England for a month to be with her son Travis, his wife Teresa, and their son Jack. Jack is her first and, until there are others, her only grandchild. It goes without saying then that he is her favorite. Jack will be celebrating his first birthday while my sister is with them and he will also be taking his first step. Teresa is with child again, expecting in October. They will also be vacationing in Spain for a week while she is there.
     And me? I have moved into my sister's home in El Paso while she is gone, keeping her two dogs, Cricket and Willow, company and watering the plants. Pray for my wife as she remains at home in San Antonio and trudges back and forth to work daily. She is our bread winner and my biggest supporter. I wasn't the first choice for my sister's house sitter; her first choice cancelled three days ago due to the offer of employment in Austin. There was little time for preparation or thought, two days later I was on a plane to El Paso. 
     The next 30 days will be an experiment and proving ground for me to do better with my life. I have always believed that if you did something 20 times it would become a habit. I have numerous bad habits to break and several specific habits I hope to acquire during the next 30 days. 
     I watch too much television, waste too much time on unproductive things, consume too much food while exercising too little. On a positive note, I am challenging myself to acquire a host of good habits. My blood sugar is much too high. My weight is problematic. I need to structure my time for writing and complete the re-write on my novel, prepare my collection of devotions for publication, alter the mindless time I spend in front of the television with inspiring time spent in the pages of uplifting literature. I want to commune more with God, offering praise and prayers and listening for His voice. 
     I will post here daily, beginning tomorrow my weight, my blood sugar levels, my food consumption, my exercise activities, my writing progress, my pages read, my prayers offered, my daily activities and my thoughts for the day. 
     Come and join with me. Hold me accountable daily. Come along side and break your bad habits and acquire new healthy ones. Let's do this, accept the challenge. 

     We can do better... 

I just put my sister on the plane. On my way back to her house I stopped at the grocery store and picked up $108.00 of nutritious, healthy and low calorie foods. I now have fresh fish, chicken breasts, fruits, vegetables, whole grain bread and a variety of heart-healthy, low calorie, fat-free snacks. I had an apple with 2 TBL of peanut butter when I got home. I put up the food and now I'm headed out for a 30 minute walk.  It would be a good time to pray for strength of my convictions as the empty house I will come back to has a 55" flatscreen in the living room and a 42" in the den.