NO TURNING BACK NOW...

DAY 3

• This morning's weight:      242.5         
• Fasting Blood Sugar:           174             
• Breakfast:                                               

       Bowl of fresh fruit (strawberries, red grapes, a pear)
       Orange juice

       2 cups coffee (no additives)

• Activities:

       Headed to neighborhood mall for a walk

       Shopped for a Bday present for David

       Blood sugar went through the floor - had to stop 
            at Starbucks

• Snack: 

       See above - Starbucks
       Tall Vanilla Latte
       Blueberry Muffin                                                 

• Activities:

        Up to chapter 15 of same kind of different...

        Made a production for lunch

             (Only consumed 1/2 of the muffin and ready for
             something special)

        Blackened Catfish with caper sauce

        Spanish rice with peas and tomatoes

        1/2 small avocado with salsa

• Lunch: (There's enough leftovers for another day!)

• Activities:

       Worked on blog so I could make you

       envious about lunch...
       Off to find a fax machine, finishing my
        taxes and ready to send via Turbo Tax
        but must transfer funds into IRA first.

• Dinner: 8:00pm

       1/2 cup rotisserie chicken salad

       6 saltines

       small wedge iceberg/sliced tomato      

       Fat-free Ranch
       2% milk 1 cup

• Blood Sugar before dinner: 164

   THOUGHTS FOR THE DAY: 

     I decided to bite the bullet and shave off the beard and mustache. It's been my almost constant companion for over 40 years - I shaved it off for a week when Liz and I got married 34 years ago and once again for about a week 9 years later. Liz asked me to grow it back both times. Yes, I was ugly back then too but with half my face covered with hair, not so much. Just in case family and friends don't notice the changes in my behavior, I can always point to the loss of the scraggly, homeless-person-looking-beard. And also, it gave me a title for today's blog, No Turning Back Now.

  

     Even if Liz does somehow convince me to grow back the beard, the positive changes in my lifestyle and character I hope to keep. However the loneliness is becoming a real hurdle. I walked a shopping mall on this side of town today just to be around other people. I even asked a sales clerk for directions I didn't need. It was a pleasure to stop at Starbuck's and sip a latte and munch half a blueberry muffin under the pretense my blood sugar was low. The day before I had opted for a fruit cup to fight off low blood sugar. Today, I was desperate.

     I thought this experiment was going to be easier. Years ago I worked in Mexico City during the week and flew home on weekends. That was a snap compared to this. There, I had an office staff and clients to visit with. Here, I feel like a prisoner in solitary confinement. Oh sure, I have a well stocked kitchen, a beautiful yard, great weather, and two giant screen TVs but nothing beats a companion. No wonder God made Eve for Adam. He saw how alone Adam was. And no, I'm not in search of an Evette or a Liz II. I am, however, looking forward to attending church this Sunday. Usually I could expect a lot of attention as a guest and I might have charmed someone to invite me to lunch, but this Sunday is Easter and the church will be overflowing with visitors and those who only attend on "High Holy Days." The only person who will likely make eye contact with me will be the usher shoving an offering plate my way. 


     Let me know you're reading this, if only to tell me what I misspelled or what a wimp I am and how lucky I am to be able to get out of town and how many guys would love to get away  from work and that I should just suck it up. 


     I better quit while I'm ahead.  My overall grade for today: C-

     How did you do?